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Sunday, September 5, 2010
Touching story of a Mother & Son @ 7:29 PM

My mom only had one eye. I hated her, she was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell, anything for the money we needed. She was such an embarrassment. There was this one day during elementary school. I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school..."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me.
I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time.
Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly.
That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.
Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul university with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.
This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me "What?!" Who's this?!"... It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.
And I asked her, "Who are you? I don't know you!!!" as if I tried to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! Get out here now!" And to this,my mother quietly answered "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank goodness... She doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.
Then a wave of relief came upon me... one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house... Just out of curiosity theyre, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand... It was letter to me.
She wrote...
My Son, I think my life has been long enough now, And... I won't visit Seoul anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the schooll... For you... I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you.
You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine... I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you didi. The couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young around me.
I miss you so much. I Love you. You mean the world to me.

My world shattered! The I cried for the person who lived for me. My mother

**i've got this story from my extensive english book~

Dieu, je suis fatigué @ 12:04 PM

"Dieu, je suis fatigué". Do you know what the word mean? It was "God, I am tired". Coba aja kemaren 3 hari ga perlu ikut camp kayak s*****, ga mungkin sakit kaya sekarang. 38 anak dalam satu kelas uda ga bisa kompak, percuma ga bisa enjoy jalanin camp kayak gitu. "Menambah kekompakan, kerjasama, kemandirian," but what, BULLSHIT semua kalian XC ST. Louis 10-11. Setahun uda nunggu cuma buat hari ini berangkat berlibur. Already packing, booking ticket, maps, etc. Manusia bisa merencanakan tapi Tuhan yang melaksanakan. Oh god.. hope You will give me another chance.

Saturday, August 14, 2010
Boyfriend test - SHINee @ 9:43 PM

1. When you suddenly talk in a nasal voice.

* Onew - Surprised, so he just stares and smiles
* Jonghyun - Stares for a while, and then grins all of a sudden
* Kibum - Imitates you and laughs
* Minho - Gets rid of his flaming charisma and just smiles at you
* Taemin - Says "Hehe.. Nuna you're funny..." and laughs

2. When you ask them to entertain you because you're bored.

* Onew - Says he'll go shopping with you
* Jonghyun - Brings his mp3 over, listens to it with you and falls asleep while listening
* Kibum - Tickles you and plays with you
* Minho - Silently brings two Nintendo DS and plays with you
* Taemin - Says he'll take you to a PC room or an arcade

3. When some thugs gang up on you

* Onew - Pushes you away and gets beat up in your place
* Jonghyun - Runs over and beats them up for you
* Kibum - Calls all the sunbae he knows
* Minho - Shoots his flaming charisma on them so they run away
* Taemin - Calls the police

4. When he goes to the army

* Onew - Tells you that you're forbidden to look at any other guys until he comes back
* Jonghyun - Says "This oppa will come back much cooler"
* Kibum - Chatters on and on for the last time
* Minho - Says one thing. "I'll come back..."
* Taemin - Says "You trust me right? I'll be back soon."

5. When he's back from the army

* Onew - Suddenly comes up behind you, hugs you and says "Did you wait long?"
* Jonghyun - Hugs you, tells you he missed you and also says "How am I? Isn't oppa cooler?"
* Kibum - Smiles widely and says "Did you wait a long time?"
* Minho - Gets rid of his flaming charisma, smiles and hugs you while saying "I missed you"
* Taemin - Flies over and hugs you and says "I'm finally back!"

6. When you confess your love to him

* Onew - Listens quietly and then hugs you
* Jonghyun - Confesses together with you
* Kibum - Thanks you and gives you a present
* Minho - Takes you somewhere else and confesses his love.
* Taemin - Says he's going to confess, too

7. When you're crying in front of your house

* Onew - Holds you and comforts you
* Jonghyun - Comforts you, and then watches you go into the house
* Kibum - Takes you to his house and comforts you there
* Minho - Hugs you until you stop crying
* Taemin - Stays still and then cautiously talks to you

8. When you doze off on the bus

* Onew - Falls asleep first and leans on you
* Jonghyun - Falls asleep together with you, wakes up suddenly and puts his jacket over you
* Kibum - Watches you quietly
* Minho - Sits you on his lap
* Taemin - Wakes you up and tells you to sleep at home

9. After your date, when you go home

* Onew - Asks "Do you want me to take you home?"
* Jonghyun - Says "Let's go" and nothing else and takes you home
* Kibum - Says "Is your house big? Did you clean your room?" and nags you all the way until your house
* Minho - Says nothing and takes you home
* Taemin - Says "Nuna, I'm scared! I'll call you so go home by yourself!" and goes home by himself

10. When you say you're cold

* Onew - Takes his coat off for you
* Jonghyun - Buys you a windbreaker
* Kibum - Takes you into a warm coffee shop and buys you coffee
* Minho - Puts his coat around both of you
* Taemin - Says he's cold and asks you to take off your coat for him

11. When you say you're exhausted

* Onew - Asks you if you're okay and pats your back
* Jonghyun - Tells you to cry if you're exhausted
* Kibum - Asks what happened
* Minho - Holds you
* Taemin - Suddenly turns into Power Taemin and holds you tightly

12. When you're walking together

* Onew - Holds your hand tightly
* Jonghyun - Says "You're really pretty from the side..." and keeps staring at you
* Kibum - Keeps chattering
* Minho - Stares at you with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Acts cute and talks with you

13. When you say there's something in your eye

* Onew - Blows on your eye
* Jonghyun - Says "Stop joking" but blows on your eye anyway
* Kibum - Hits the back of your head until you cry
* Minho - Melts the dust with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Says "I think there's something in my eye too~" and has you blow on his eye

14. When SHINee comes over when you're coming out of school

* Onew - Asks if you're hungry and buys you food
* Jonghyun - Suddenly holds your hand and walks together
* Kibum - Packs lunch for you and feeds you
* Minho - Shoots flaming charisma while he walks over
* Taemin - Holds your hand and says "did you miss oppa?"

15. When you say you want this and that

* Onew - Buys for you without hesitation
* Jonghyun - Says "No! I don't have money~" and buys something slightly cheaper
* Kibum - Says "Save money!" but buys it the next day and leaves it front of your house
* Minho - Glares at you with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Says "Oppa doesn't have money~" and begs you to buy it for him

16. When you ignore all his calls and texts for a day

* Onew - Has texted you 50 times and called you 50 times
* Jonghyun - Has texted you 20 times and called you 60 times and then ran over to your house
* Kibum - Has texted you 3 times, called you 20 times and ran over to your house
* Minho - Has texted you 20 times, called you 100 times and then consistently asks you the next day what you did the day before
* Taemin - Has texted you 2 times, called you 3 times and then comes over and cries, asking why you ignored him

17. When you cry

* Onew - Holds you and comforts you
* Jonghyun - Suddenly becomes serious, pats your back and says, "Don't cry..."
* Kibum - Says "Aigoo, my baby, don't cry"
* Minho - Says scarily, "Who made you cry"
* Taemin - Cries with you, saying, "Nuna, why are you crying?"

18. When you're laughing crazily because of something really funny

* Onew - Shocked, says ""
* Jonghyun - Laughs crazily AT you
* Kibum - Scolds you, saying, "A girl shouldn't laugh like that"
* Minho - Says nothing and makes you feel awkward
* Taemin - Laughs crazily WITH you

19. When you gift him with a sweater you've made yourself

* Onew - Extremely touched, says "Wow... Baby, thanks..."
* Jonghyun - Complains that it looks weird, but wears it extremely often
* Kibum - Confused, says, "Huh, I never taught you stuff like this"
* Minho - Only says "thanks"
* Taemin - Acts cute to show his gratitude

20. When you kiss him on the cheek

* Onew - Blushes brightly but kisses you
* Jonghyun - Says, "You started it" and kisses you deeply
* Kibum - Gets shocked and says, "Oh my god, what're you doing"
* Minho - Clears his throat and makes the situation awkward
* Taemin - Sprouts nosebleed

21. When you're with him at a swimming pool in a bikini and guys stare at you

* Onew - Puts a towel over you silently
* Jonghyun - Curses everyone out silently
* Kibum - Starts scolding you, "What were you thinking?!"
* Minho - Scares everyone with his flaming charisma so no one can stare.
* Taemin - Says "Nuna, I don't like sexy women" and makes you go change

22. When you call suddenly really late at night

* Onew - Woke up because of your call and is sleepy, but says he wasn't sleeping and stays on the phone with you
* Jonghyun - Says "who told you to call this late" but sings you a sweet lullaby
* Kibum - Nags you about waking up because of you, but all of a sudden you realize he's been talking more than you have
* Minho - Worries about you because you aren't asleep yet
* Taemin - Is very honest and tells you he's sleepy and is going to go to sleep

23. During the finals week, when you've studied at school until really late and call him to take you home

* Onew - Asks you where you are, runs over as fast as he can and brings hot cocoa with him
* Jonghyun - Tells you that he's too tired and it's too much work, so you're walking home alone upset, but suddenly appears and wraps his arm around you to surprise you
* Kibum - Says "Since when do you study?" but also says "Don't go anywhere"
* Minho - Before you call him, he calls you to ask if you want to get picked up
* Taemin - Comes over in his mom's car to give you a ride

24. When you show up wearing a really short skirt

* Onew - Clears his throat because he doesn't know where to keep his gaze
* Jonghyun - Says "Sheesh... I don't know what to do with you.." and takes off his jacket to tie it around your front and walks closely behind you
* Kibum - Hits you and says he won't hang out with you if you dress like this again
* Minho - Doesn't say anything, but every time a guy stares at you glares at them with his flaming charisma
* Taemin - Very honestly says, "Wow, your legs are really pretty, nuna"

25. When you're in pain in because of really high heels

* Onew - Suddenly takes you to a bench, sits you down and gives you a foot massage
* Jonghyun - Goes into a store, buys a pair of cheap slippers for himself and gives you his sneakers
* Kibum - Nags you about it, suddenly gives you a piggy back ride, but doesn't stop nagging
* Minho - Stares at you for a while with his flaming charisma, then kneels down and tells you "Get on"
* Taemin - Doesn't know what to do because you're hurting

26. When you say, "Let's break up"

* Onew - Says nothing except "Good bye" and then when you turn your back smiles sadly and cries
* Jonghyun - Says "Let me hold you for the last time" and then lets you go, but cries his eyes out when you're gone
* Kibum - Suddenly stops joking around and asks you if you're joking and says he won't let you go
* Minho - Stares at you, and when you turn around takes your arm and tells you not to go
* Taemin - Whines, asks why and says no like a child

27. After you've broken up

* Onew - Makes sure you don't know, but visits the front of your house and stares at your window
* Jonghyun - Calls you when he's drunk and cries his heart out
* Kibum - Texts you things like "You really aren't going to see me?" "I miss you" "I can't let you go"
* Minho - Calls anonymously and hangs up after he hears your voice
* Taemin - Cries because he doesn't know what to do after the first person that he fell in love with dumped him

Key : 16
Minho : 5
Onew : 4 
Jonghyun : 2 

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Saturday, July 24, 2010
SHINee's Password @ 9:33 PM

i've just found SHINee's password scans. LOL, it was totally shocked! haha XD just found other side from my boys~

**i've got this from SFI

Sunday, July 11, 2010
Nobar Sister Eclipse Surabaya! :D @ 9:01 PM

--> wow, ini studio 2 rame penuh sama acara nobar sister and female magazine >.<

yes, today is 11 july 2010! :D waktunya untuk nonton bareng Eclipse with Sister Magazine yang sudah lama kutunggu-tunggu >.< and yes! acaranya SERU BANGET! XDD walau sempet bete karena planning awal untuk dateng awal di XXI TP batal karena Karin yang telat dateng, tapi marah-marah sudah terbayar begitu nyampe di XXI TP. Begitu nyampe, ternyata uda rame dan langsung disambut mbak Citra yang cantik, hehe. Selesai regristasi, kita langsung dikasi tas ijo (yang lumayan gede), dan isinya bagus-bagus semua! :D

--> left : tas ijonya gede dan lumayan tebel. right : isinya banyak! :D pencilcase, makeupcase, statement necklace, sister march edition, studded necklace, and shawl

dan oh ternyata sister, berhubung saya termasuk pembaca setia sejak taun 2010, kalian ke-gap kalau sebenernya yang ada di tas ijo adalah bonus-bonus dari edisi-edisi sebelumnya. Tapi aku tetep suka, kan lumayan buat nambah koleksi :]

--> September 2009. "made peace with fashion" was mine, bonus from the magz. "effortlessy cool" from my bonus, "i'm a shopaholic" from Karin. Keliatan ga kalo statement necklace nya aku susun kaya yg nampang di majalah? LOL, sayang ga punya "i love shoes"

--> Februari 2010. Studded bracelet bonus dari yang kubeli, yang panjang itu bonus. But what's that? necklace eh?

--> April 2010. Right shawl was mine, dan yang kiri yang bonus

Dan yes! berkat udah beli Sister July 2010, dapet bonus tambahan, hoho~

--> lumayan dapet softlens gratis buat gaya-gayaan XD dapet warna ijo

--> kalo produk kecantikan ini (shampoo, sabun pembersih, whitening, lipstic) ini saya kasih nyokap :P

--> dan foto-foto trahir bareng sister magazine sebelum pulang :D (ga keliatan saya -__-)

Saturday, July 10, 2010
The Second Key(?) @ 8:45 PM

oh gosh, i've just found these pictures (topic) in SHINee Forum International (credit to airaloveskey). Dont know why, i just like this boy :P perhaps because he's ordinary boy (not an artist like Key) so i've lot of chance to meet him(?) BWAHAHAHA~ just joking  ^.^

i love this one so much~

his name is Ho Jun Yeon, an ullzang~ the way he talks really likes with Key, and he has good fashion sense too.

pretty's side >.<


Fact:Ho Jun Yeon is really really famous and he has his own fan club(i think it's hitomi or something forgot the name of the fan club)

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

6 July 2010 in the morning, when i first time woke up from my dreamland, pertamanya yang kedengeran ada yang nyetel radio dan ngoceh "surabaya berkabut", oh gosh dan ternyata saya liat keluar jendela beneran berkabut tebal! :O **liat foto di atas, taken from 07.00 am** 

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